Judging. We all judge people whether we admit it or not. I try not to but I found my self giving one of my friends grief about drinking today. I never really thought I would be in one of those groups that parties, smokes, does drugs and drinks but I that's where I'm finding myself. I'm not a fan of it. I keep "joking" - rather harshly - to my friend about how he should stop drinking because he's become somewhat....dependent on it. It scares the crap out of me. This guy is messing his life up pretty badly, but it is not my place to step in and tell him how to live. I just need to back off.
I am worried about the future. My future this time. I think of what I want to do....I say photography "to show something real"...I don't know if I want to. I don't know if I want to travel or take photographs or go to college for that. I feel like I'm going to be one of those people, the kind of people I talked about last year. The ones who thought they were photographers but didn't have the strength or the will to be a part of the competition. I'm not that good. I'm really not and there are so many people who are much better at what I "do".
I need to talk to someone about this. >.< This blog does not respond or give me advice. I should go to church...it starts in 5 minutes....ugh. Homework....sleep...GAH.
I'm going.
DFTBA
-Laura
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