Thought Bucket

I hate being sick. Either I never got over my cold from last week, or I got better and I met a tiny chicken and it laid eggs in my head and they are growing and hatching. The tiny baby chickens are feeding on my brain...*

*Brotherhood 2.0/ Vlogbrothers


Anyway, I was going to talk about God.

God and I have been having a...tough time lately. It's not that I don't believe in him or that I don't appreciate what he has done, but I just don't talk to him...or read the Bible or really care about church. I have become apathetic towards him. I have been trying to mend this divide the last few weeks, and I'm finding it to be more difficult than I expected. I mean I have heard the saying "If being Christian was easy, then everyone would do it." But I can't say I've ever felt this...casual about it. Like I'll try and I feel like I'm getting nowhere but I'm not even upset about it. I just kind of shrug it off and keep talking to him. The worst part is being jealous of people who do have a connection with him. Isn't that just sad? That even though I don't try that hard to be with him I'm still jealous? I am ashamed of my self.

Anyway, what I really wanted to talk about.

There is this video, "Why I Hate Religion but Love Jesus". It's all over the interenet and it has caused an uproar that I wasn't ready for. Atheists are making videos against it, Christains are making videos against it, Muslims are making videos against it...its craziness.

My first thought of the video was: YEAH! Now I'm like: Hmmm. 


I feel like I'm not educated enough to know how to view this. I was watching all these videos and I'm thinking: That sounds correct but are they skipping key points that are set out in the Bible? And then I thought: Wow. I really don't know...this is intense stuff.


And then God said: This is what I am preparing you for.


.......what?!?!

Yes. (If you have "heard" God before hopefully you know what I'm talking about and don't think I'm crazy.)

My point is: Yes I need to read the Bible and I need to know things before I can defend my God and beliefs. I'm clearly a slacker in this area.

I have no reason to be jealous, because it's my fault for not meeting Him half way.

DFTBA

-Laura