Thought

The Frontal Lobe of the brain - It regulates decision making, problem solving, control of purposeful behaviors, consciousnesses and emotions. It is also one of the four major divisions of the cerebral cortex.

People describe it as:
-Our emotional Control Center
-"Home of our personality"

Right Side:
-Controls non verbal activites

Left Side: 
-Controls language and related movement

Division of the Frontal Lobes:
-Prefontal Cortex- personality expression, planning of complex cognitive behaviors
-Premotor and Motor Area- nerves that control voluntary muscle movement
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I've been reading a lot recently and I find it kind of interesting that many of the books have focused on how we perceive people. Our minds like to sort things into categories, right? And we as humans judge people and sort them based on how we think they are based on dress, attitude, where they live etc...And despite the fact that we may really truly think we know someone to the core, like a friend or relative, there is a good chance that we don't. I'm not really sure how to explain what I mean other than to say that don't just assume you know someone because you hang out with them occasionally. They may be a completely different person. And don't expect them to be anyone else but them selves, because often we create an image in our minds of who they should be. And its wrong to do that. Don't compare people, because there is no comparison.


DFTBA

-Laura










Sources of Information:
http://www.neuroskills.com/brain-injury/frontal-lobes.php
http://science-education.nih.gov/supplements/nih2/addiction/activities/lesson1_brainparts.htm

Waiting For the End - Linkin Park

Not a band I listen to often. Or at all really.

Every time I hear it I go back to one night.

We're driving down the street, past a school or possibly a church sign and I was singing along. He was too. I had a sudden feeling that he wanted me to stop. So I did. I watched a building go by, the yellow street lights dimmed by the blacked windows. We parked.

We walked through that town, past shops and talked about apartments. Looking into windows of various stores, walking some more, admiring the court house. I remember asking him about one of my friends, but I did't really care about his response. I knew my view of her, and it was as if I was trying to show my self I was capable of my own thought process. We walked and walked and walked. A cool alleyway here, an interesting view of the moon there...

Why did I stop singing in the car? 

I felt like I was taking something that was his.

Like I was intruding on his life.

Evidently he thought so too.

I don't think about this often but upon listening to covers by two very talented young men, I found this song and I started thinking about...everything tied to this. It's not that important to me anymore, but it pops up occasionally. And sometimes I wish I had the courage to talk to him one last time. Not about this, but about everything (except this.) I miss having a person to go to, to be able to express ideas and  thoughts to. But life happens, people separate and time goes on.

Its actually kind of funny. My family and I went to WalMart today to return my sister's gift and exchange it for something else. When I got out of the car I thought about the possibility of seeing a person of interest (not to pursue, but literally someone who looked interesting.) I kept my head down but of course to my misfortune I look up and there he is. Plaid and all doing that awkward smile wave thing, where he is obviously just being polite. I hate that. So anyway my mom was like "Why was he so shy/awkward towards us?" and I basically laughed out loud. I seriously just wish that I could go and give it a better ending. Not the relationship, that wasn't too bad but the friendship. That was the ugly part.

Hate it.

-Laura

PS-Worst Part? It was my fault.

Tracing Doubt

Its so odd to think that our minds can process so much. Have you ever thought about that? Or how even when just a bit of information left out can change our entire view on a situation...I really do want to know how the brain works, so for the next few weeks I will be doing research on different parts of the brain. This is completely out of context as to what I was going to post about but I guess it found it's place.

Anyway. Goodness. Sometimes I wonder "Will any of this matter in the end?" Will my words actually have an effect on people? Because sometimes I feel like I'm screaming but no one can hear me. I will be sitting somewhere and say something relevant to the situation and people will just continue on with the conversation as if my mouth had never opened. I always secretly hope that at least one person heard me, just so I don't feel so invisible so at least then I know that I'm not a silent voice.

I am a very frequent reader. I'm not sure if I have posted this on this blog yet, but I have a feeling I make up for my nonevent-full life by reading a bunch of stories of other peoples event full lives. Most of the people don't even exist. In all truth my life isn't even nonevent-full. Maybe it's just to escape into a more... likable world? If that makes sense. Art and reading are my true routes of escape from reality. (Well that and the mindless watching of YouTube at obscene hours of the night...morning?)

I feel like such a bum. I mean I get to complain and contemplate about life and how the brain works while people around the world are starving. Something is very wrong with this picture. In America, we worry about being obese. I mean really?! How sad is that? We worry about being too fat while people are starving, not only in other countries, but in our very own streets. Gah!

I don't really remember where I was going with this....bananas.

DFTBA.

-Laura

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DANCING WITH AN IPOD IN PUBLIC

This. Is. Amazing.

Christmas Time Is Here...

Christmas time is here
Happiness and cheer
Fun for all that children call
Their favorite time of the year

Snowflakes in the air
Carols everywhere
Olden times and ancient rhymes
Of love and dreams to share

Sleigh bells in the air
Beauty everywhere
Yuletide by the fireside
And joyful memories there

Christmas time is here
We'll be drawing near
Oh, that we could always see
Such spirit through the year
Oh, that we could always see
Such spirit through the year...


-A Charlie Brown Christmas-

Tab For A Cause and The Decrease Of World Suck

Hello, well instead of my usually self centered rant, I thought I would take today and introduce you to something called "Tab For A Cause"/

This organization was made to support several causes around the world. It was created by some pretty awesome Nerdfighters =) Anyway, to quote one of the creators "Some friends and I started this site for people who are looking to give back to the world but might not have the time or money to do so. We raise money through advertising revenue, so it's completely free, and it takes about a minute to get involved."  

So if you can't tell, Its super easy to get involved and help others. I personally think it's amazing. 

I haven't really mentioned my Nerdfighter-ness before but I suppose this would be a good introduction. 

Hello! My name is Laura and I'm a hardcore Nerdfighter. (haha...)

What is Nerdfighteria? 

Hmmm....How to explain....

HEY! LOOK! A NIFTY VIDEO!!! =D 

That made my life a whole easier. 

Mwuhahaha.

DFTBA =) 

I Feel Like....

Throwing Up
Yelling at People
Quitting  my Job
Sleeping
Doing Nothing.

Ah, the dreadful days that people can hardly bear: The Days Before Christmas Break.
This year is particularly bad since some of my teachers are like: "Lets give you your exams before break!!" And a little voice inside of me is gradually getting louder saying : noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

 Gah. I hope we get a very bad ice storm and school is canceled.  Not just because the roads are icy, but because it gets so cold that the school's pipes literally just exploded.

I was reading through some of my old posts and notes on facebook (thanks to the new "timeline" thing) and I had said: "One of my greatest fears is losing people" And I guess I have changed quite a bit in 1-2 years time because now I accept the fact that it happens. In fact, I am encouraging that to happen in my life right now. I really don't like my group of friends at the moment but I figure that in a few months they will all be gone and I won't have to deal with them any more.

Surprisingly enough, the people who I thought were gonna change stayed the same. Not completely the same obviously, since situations are "ever changing", but the core person is still there and intact. I can't say the same for some of my other friends.

I don't know. So far in the year of 2011 I have learned this:

-People suck
-People change
-Sleep is a treat
-Life continues on
-coffee can be pretty tasty
and
-As much as you like a job in the beginning, people will ruin it

And with realizing this I know that I am also a person and I am far from perfect. Sometimes though, just sometimes, I wish I could go relive the past and cherish it for a little bit longer.

Dear (Good, Non-Troll) Sherry,

I don't know if you remember, but on the last day of work you told me "Don't take crap from anyone" and not thinking, I thought you meant not to steal...yeah not the brightest moment. So you explained to me not to let people push me around and give me grief. Well that's exactly what I plan on doing. (Not doing?) I'm standing up for my-self, and not letting people act like they can do anything to me and have me be okay with it.

This includes Sherry M. (the "other" Sherry...lets call her The Ruin-er of Lives. T.R.O.L...Troll. ) So Troll has been...not pleasant in the least bit and everyone is getting ticked off. Including me. Along with obnoxious friends who lie all the time, I'm not in the mood to put up with shit at work.

So I guess I'm just saying, I'm taking your advice and finally doing something to defend myself. Thank you for being one of the best people I've met so far.

-Laura

Express

I want someone to express my ideas to. This is driving me crazy. And it needs to be someone who knows what I mean in a sense, and who I'm comfortable with. Gah. >.< That person doesn't exist in my life yet.

"Fall In Love When You're Ready, Not When You're Lonely"

Hello.

Have you ever thought about joining the U.S Military?

I have. I don't know if I have what it takes. I actually highly doubt that I do have what it takes.

I do want to go to college but I feel like I need to do something to repay the world. (And you're probably like, "How will joining the Military help you repay the world?") They don't just kill people and get killed. Our soldiers help others. They fight for the rights that we have and that most of us take for granted.

As I said before, I'm not much of a Military person, but possibly something like the Peace Corp or YWAM kind of person. Many may be aware of the first one, but not the second. (There are many more programs than just these two obviously.) YWAM is:

"Youth With A Mission is an international volunteer movement of Christians from many backgrounds, cultures and Christian traditions, dedicated to serving Jesus throughout the world. Also known as YWAM (pronounced "WHY-wham"), our purpose is simply to know God and to make Him known.

When YWAM began in 1960, our main focus was giving young people opportunities to demonstrate the love of Jesus to the whole world, according to His command in Mark 16:15. Today, we still focus on youth, but we have members (known as “YWAMers”) of almost every age and many of our short-term efforts have grown into long-term endeavors that have impacted lives and nations.

YWAM has a decentralized structure that encourages new vision and the exploration of new ways to change lives through training, convey the message of the gospel and care for those in need. We are currently operating in more than 1000 locations in over 180 countries, with a staff of over 18,000."

http://www.ywam.org/About-YWAM

But yes...I dunno. If I were going to go into the Military I guess I would go into the Air Force, since this is the only one I have actually looked into. But all together I guess I just really feel the need to go help others, not even try to force religion down their throat, but just to help them and see their lives improve. 

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Lets Gets Real Here/ Tiredness

Lately I've been feeling a mixture of emotions.

I went to a friends house yesterday. I new friend really, I talked to her sometimes but never really had a "real" conversation with her. Before going I was nervous just because I'm not a fan of making friendships. I used to really want friends, and not to be alone but all I do now is run away from people. I'm tired of getting caught up in every part of drama in their life. Is there just a friendship that I can have that only requires having fun and not over thinking for one night? I love that people are able to talk to me about things, but I am so so tired and sometimes I would like to get a word in.

Another thing is, why don't people like other people? Is there really a fine between liking someone but at the same time hating to be around them? I dunno. -_-

Church. For some reason I have been dreading going to church. This is what you should know about me: I am Christian girl and have been since I was very little. Recently I've been getting closer to God and everything was fine but one day, I just stopped talking to him. Every nerve in my body resisted against him and I stopped going to church. I still went to youth group but anywhere near him made me feel sick. I'm better now, I have started talking to him again but its still not that...awesome. =/ I have church tomorrow and I'm afraid I'll get the same response my sister did every time she came back "Oh where were you?! blah blah blah blah blah pray more blah" I just wanna be like "GO AWAY". I apologized to my youth leader for not showing up for Sunday school and he just looked me straight in the eye with a smart-ass look and said "Don't apologize to me." AGH.

What I have been doing instead of thinking about everything: Hiding in books.

I'm just tired. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.

So this is my life right now. Sorry about the rant.

-Laura