What Now?

It's really weird to like somebody. Its extremely weird when you know it actually might happen, but you don't want it to. I don't know how to explain this in a way that may not get me into a mess I don't want to be in (for you see, I don't know who reads my blog).

I've liked this guy for a long time. Before I knew what relationships were, before I should have been interested in boys. He's always been there for me and continues to be and I am feeling this attraction to him that I'm afraid will be something more than just friendship. He is in a relationship with a girl he really likes, and she is the sweetest thing. I don't want to be "that girl". I don't want to tear up a relationship - not really saying I have the power to do so because I as sure of his feelings as I am about the weather.

It's not a problem really, just a sort of nagging in my mind. I can ignore it but there are times when it gets the best of me and I start to wonder.

There was a question on some site that asked something along the lines of: If you had one day that you could do what ever you wanted, and then reset it so it never happened, what would you do?

My first thing on the list was to watch the sunrise on this hill where you can see the town's lights and the outline of all the trees. The second thing was to tell this guy how I felt in some way wait for his reaction and then leave (which wouldn't be the best plan - which is kind of the point of being able to reset the day). The list goes on but that's the idea.

Like I said - nothing I can't ignore. And I know I'm kind of pathetic for being this way (liking him and such and assuming that he might feel something too) but I haven't been able to say anything about it and needed to say it to someone/ something.