What You May Call It - Outlets

My love for music has no end. There are moments where I just want to drown in it and be able to create something like that, to make someone feel that way. I love many styles of music but my favorites are classical, jazz, swing and some random crap mixed in there (including but not limited to, techno and alternative). The fact is I know some things about music, but not a whole lot. I don't feel I have enough talent, or technical knowledge in this one area to dedicate my life to it.

I also am in love with painting. I like appreciating other peoples work, and loosing myself in what I'm doing. It takes so much concentration that I could easily spend hours upon hours working on something without realizing that five minutes have gone by. What I like the most is being able to look at the finished product and being satisfied with it. Knowing that there could be improvement, but also realizing that you MADE that subject or place come alive. I have only just started to explore this area of art so I'm not sure if I could do it for a living and be comfortable with that choice.

I fancy writing. I like creating people and places, making them as simple or complex as I choose to make multiple things come together. I love being able to show people an image with words, to be able to take them to a different place. I love the thought of originality (not like a hipster thing) but just introducing people to ideas they haven't thought of before. I've been complimented on my writing many times by various teachers and people (this blog is not an example of what I consider my "writing") but it takes a lot for me to get started on a writing project, although once I have, it's easy to continue to work on. I just feel like I would have to push myself a lot to be able to be a writer, and once I am one, its not like people have to buy my books.

Photography. This is what everyone expects me to do (everyone close to me anyway) because it is probably what I'm best at. I love the compliments I get on my photos (this is the only area in which I get a little confident in). The idea of being a photojournalist and traveling is beautiful. But that's just what it is: an idea. I think it would be fun to go and see other cultures and be able to capture moments of time but in all honesty, I love the thought of a family and having my children grow up in one house. I want to grow some of my own vegetables and support local businesses and be a mom.

But a mom isn't all I want to be.

I want to be a musical, knowledgeable, painting, photographing, book writing ,book reading super woman of awesome. 

So basically I don 't know what I want to do with my life. I would like to take everything and mash it together but I'm not sure how that would happen. So for now I'll just be that woman, and decide on which path to take later. 

-Laura