Friday, April 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Negativity, School and Vlogging
I want to talk about the one that makes me the happiest first. Vlogging. (Is that how you spell it? Hmm.) So throughout high school I was considering vlogging, mostly for all the wrong reasons and I worried for all the wrong reasons too. I don't mean "for the wrong reasons" in an inappropriate way, just that I know that if I had vlogged I wouldn't have been the real me. So now I've sort of gotten my self figured out and I'm really not all that self conscious about it any more. You know what? I like lists.
Reasons to:
1.) I'm a very expressive person. I make some weird faces and I talk with my hands, etc. I feel like I would sound like less of a crazy person ranting...or maybe more so...I dunno.
2.) I would have more motivation to Vlog than to blog. Its easier for me to talk than to force myself to stop and sit down to write. (Although, I love writing so I will most likely still write on here and post the videos etc.)
3.) I might get more of a response. It's not like I want to be "YouTube famous" or be well known but I like having conversations with people and ,again, being able to express myself through voice.
I was going to make a list about why I am worried about it buuuuuut I am running out of time and need to start on my homework. 0.o
School!
To put it simply, I've been sick and have missed a lot of school/ work related things and I now have a mountain of homework to do. =D Yaaayyy. -_- So I'm just a little stressed.............just a little.
NEGATIVITY
I have been really super negative lately and it is DRIVING ME INSANE. I don't think I've had one day where I haven't said "I hate people" at least twice. I want to fix this. So I'm gonna.
Better attitude go!
=D
Okay. Good bye.
-Laura
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Negative Nelly and Positive Pepsi
I apologize for my emotional wrath the other day. Things still haven't been all that cheery but I do have a few good things to say. (I know, compared to many starving children my life is quite dandy - sorry for the pettiness.)
Nelly (cause/effect/ effect/ etc..)
1.) I was super stressed last week / I have shingles / I've had to miss work for the last three days
2.) Still a bit behind in some of my classes
3.) Medicine for shingles makes me sick and dizzy
In between:
1.) My dad sold his house
2.)I finished Doctor Who
3.) I've started to find out who I really like to hang out with.
4.) New career interests
Pepsi
1.) I got my car fixed
2.) I had my birthday
3.) The weather was actually really nice the last few days
4.) I have Pepsi
5.) I caught up on all of my sleep over the weekend
6.) I have medicine for the shingles
7.) My grandma also had her birthday!
Just a bit of everything. Well I think its time to retreat into the warm comfort of my bed. Good night.
-Laura
Nelly (cause/effect/ effect/ etc..)
1.) I was super stressed last week / I have shingles / I've had to miss work for the last three days
2.) Still a bit behind in some of my classes
3.) Medicine for shingles makes me sick and dizzy
In between:
1.) My dad sold his house
2.)I finished Doctor Who
3.) I've started to find out who I really like to hang out with.
4.) New career interests
Pepsi
1.) I got my car fixed
2.) I had my birthday
3.) The weather was actually really nice the last few days
4.) I have Pepsi
5.) I caught up on all of my sleep over the weekend
6.) I have medicine for the shingles
7.) My grandma also had her birthday!
Just a bit of everything. Well I think its time to retreat into the warm comfort of my bed. Good night.
-Laura
A picture of my lovely Grandma - she turned 75 on the fourteenth!
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Emotional Wrath
I was just an emotional wreck today. This happens every so often so I'm not surprised. What usually leads up to it is the fact that I keep all my emotions other than anger bottled up and it comes out in a blubbery emotional mess.
Can I just say I hate freaking guys?
I had a pretty crappy day and was still trying to find out a way to fix my car while stressing about school. (Yes my car decided to hate me but it's all good now.) Anyway I needed a ride home from school so I asked my friend Jeremiah. He said yes and so I went out to his car and waited for him with my friend Dezi. (Since I'm going to be mentioning this guy in an unfriendly manner a lot I'm just going to call him stupid face. Sorry for any swearing.) Stupid Face came out to the car and started being a jerk. Jeremiah eventually came too and we left.
Note: Jeremiah knows I'm terrified of his driving. I get nervous when I'm in cars that I'm not personally driving unless I know I can fully trust the person. I love Jeremiah as a brother but he purposely drives like an idiot just to scare the hell out of me.
So Stupid Face decides that it would be a good idea for Jeremiah to take a back road. Jeremiah agreed but I wasn't that nervous since I knew the road. I did start to get nervous when he started speeding toward a corner and turned the wheel of the car to make the tires skid. After that I was okay except Stupid Face was being really annoying and loud and using the "F" word in every other sentence (seriously man, use a dictionary. Expand your vocabulary....says the girl who calls him stupid face -_-) Jeremy then went onto a dirt road and proceeded to go 45 (when a safe speed would be like 35) and started swerving back and forth on the road. Was I scared? YEAH. I don't like cars. Jeremiah noticed how I was reacting (not saying anything just kind of freaking out) and started to back off but Stupid Face got upset that he wasn't currently trying to kill us.
Note2: NEVER tell someone who is freaking out to calm down. JUST DON'T.
"Calm down Laura, Jeez"
I wanted to punch Jeremiah. Still going around 50 on a back road, I was pretty pissed and freaked out. No. I mean I freaked out on him and yelled at him for going so damn fast on a dirt/ back road while he knows perfectly well that it wasn't safe. It was then that Freaking Stupid Face was an ass. HE yelled at me for being upset and said "We're all happy except for you. If you don't like his driving don't ask him for a ride." etc I didn't reply. What I said in my mind? ...not appropriate. I was mad for three reasons:
1.) He knew nothing about my day and shouldn't expect me to be happy go lucky when I'm scared and very angry. Making fun of me (other part of convo i didn't write) NOT. COOL.
2.) Jeremiah and I have been friends since we were 3 and how dare he come into the situation when he had no idea what he was talking about. This goes beyond just a ride in a car. Its a trust issue.
3.) I GREATLY DISLIKE FREAKING STUPID FACE so it took all my might not to reach up in front and punch his ugly face.
Dear readers, I am sorry you had to experience the emotional wrath of me - not very christian- like or mature to call someone stupid face, or swear or call that person ugly. I'm aware. This was a venting session.
Sorry.
-Laura
Can I just say I hate freaking guys?
I had a pretty crappy day and was still trying to find out a way to fix my car while stressing about school. (Yes my car decided to hate me but it's all good now.) Anyway I needed a ride home from school so I asked my friend Jeremiah. He said yes and so I went out to his car and waited for him with my friend Dezi. (Since I'm going to be mentioning this guy in an unfriendly manner a lot I'm just going to call him stupid face. Sorry for any swearing.) Stupid Face came out to the car and started being a jerk. Jeremiah eventually came too and we left.
Note: Jeremiah knows I'm terrified of his driving. I get nervous when I'm in cars that I'm not personally driving unless I know I can fully trust the person. I love Jeremiah as a brother but he purposely drives like an idiot just to scare the hell out of me.
So Stupid Face decides that it would be a good idea for Jeremiah to take a back road. Jeremiah agreed but I wasn't that nervous since I knew the road. I did start to get nervous when he started speeding toward a corner and turned the wheel of the car to make the tires skid. After that I was okay except Stupid Face was being really annoying and loud and using the "F" word in every other sentence (seriously man, use a dictionary. Expand your vocabulary....says the girl who calls him stupid face -_-) Jeremy then went onto a dirt road and proceeded to go 45 (when a safe speed would be like 35) and started swerving back and forth on the road. Was I scared? YEAH. I don't like cars. Jeremiah noticed how I was reacting (not saying anything just kind of freaking out) and started to back off but Stupid Face got upset that he wasn't currently trying to kill us.
Note2: NEVER tell someone who is freaking out to calm down. JUST DON'T.
"Calm down Laura, Jeez"
I wanted to punch Jeremiah. Still going around 50 on a back road, I was pretty pissed and freaked out. No. I mean I freaked out on him and yelled at him for going so damn fast on a dirt/ back road while he knows perfectly well that it wasn't safe. It was then that Freaking Stupid Face was an ass. HE yelled at me for being upset and said "We're all happy except for you. If you don't like his driving don't ask him for a ride." etc I didn't reply. What I said in my mind? ...not appropriate. I was mad for three reasons:
1.) He knew nothing about my day and shouldn't expect me to be happy go lucky when I'm scared and very angry. Making fun of me (other part of convo i didn't write) NOT. COOL.
2.) Jeremiah and I have been friends since we were 3 and how dare he come into the situation when he had no idea what he was talking about. This goes beyond just a ride in a car. Its a trust issue.
3.) I GREATLY DISLIKE FREAKING STUPID FACE so it took all my might not to reach up in front and punch his ugly face.
Dear readers, I am sorry you had to experience the emotional wrath of me - not very christian- like or mature to call someone stupid face, or swear or call that person ugly. I'm aware. This was a venting session.
Sorry.
-Laura
Monday, April 9, 2012
An Update
I've been posting random blogs every now and then but it's been a while since I have done an over all update.
Well over all I've been doing pretty...well. (Too many "wells"?) Its kind of funny that I feel like this because I have actually been pretty busy and had a lot of crap going on for a while and right around now is when I would be in my "BLAH BLAH BLAH WORLD SUCKS HATE PEOPLE" mood. I prefer it how it is now.
I haven't really been doing much, just watching Doctor Who, eating, sleeping, reading, thinking etc. Although I will make a general list of what has been going on.
General (Negative) List:
1.) My dad's job is moving him to Texas.
2.) Friend drama
3.) Heather died
4.) Exams
5.) College is still undecided
6.) Prom dress still hasn't come
7.) Doubts
8.) I will probably be gaining 5 pounds from all the Easter candy.
"General" (Positive) List:
1.) My dad loves Texas and is going to have us visit over the summer.
2.) I still love my friends and I made up with the one I was most recently short with.
3.) My Grandma is staying busy and healthy (as far as I know).
4.) Exams are over and I did well on them.
5.) I might be going to see my Uncle and his family over in New York (hurrah!)
6.) I got to sing in front of a fairly large crowd and didn't freak out. (yaay)
7.) MY DAD HAS A TELESCOPE AND I DON'T HAVE TO BUY ONE! (whoot!)
8.) I got to see both of my sisters recently.
9.) I may (or may not!) be posting some videos on YouTube. We'll see how this one goes.
10.) In...one moment...9 days I will be seventeen. ^ ^
11.) My tea that I just remembered isn't cold!
12.) I'm on season 5 of Doctor Who!
13.) This list has gotten beyond the point of being General =D
So anyway, yes I am fine, alive, breathing and such. Hope you are well too ^ ^ Good bye!
-Laura
Well over all I've been doing pretty...well. (Too many "wells"?) Its kind of funny that I feel like this because I have actually been pretty busy and had a lot of crap going on for a while and right around now is when I would be in my "BLAH BLAH BLAH WORLD SUCKS HATE PEOPLE" mood. I prefer it how it is now.
I haven't really been doing much, just watching Doctor Who, eating, sleeping, reading, thinking etc. Although I will make a general list of what has been going on.
General (Negative) List:
1.) My dad's job is moving him to Texas.
2.) Friend drama
3.) Heather died
4.) Exams
5.) College is still undecided
6.) Prom dress still hasn't come
7.) Doubts
8.) I will probably be gaining 5 pounds from all the Easter candy.
"General" (Positive) List:
1.) My dad loves Texas and is going to have us visit over the summer.
2.) I still love my friends and I made up with the one I was most recently short with.
3.) My Grandma is staying busy and healthy (as far as I know).
4.) Exams are over and I did well on them.
5.) I might be going to see my Uncle and his family over in New York (hurrah!)
6.) I got to sing in front of a fairly large crowd and didn't freak out. (yaay)
7.) MY DAD HAS A TELESCOPE AND I DON'T HAVE TO BUY ONE! (whoot!)
8.) I got to see both of my sisters recently.
9.) I may (or may not!) be posting some videos on YouTube. We'll see how this one goes.
10.) In...one moment...9 days I will be seventeen. ^ ^
11.) My tea that I just remembered isn't cold!
12.) I'm on season 5 of Doctor Who!
13.) This list has gotten beyond the point of being General =D
So anyway, yes I am fine, alive, breathing and such. Hope you are well too ^ ^ Good bye!
-Laura
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