Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Procrastination
I've been watching "Charlieissocoollike" for almost two or three years now. He's still awesome. xD Bahaha every time I procrastinate I watch this video just for the humor of it.
Break Down
I hate breaking down. I just can't deal with it. I have these emotions that just get bottled up inside. Thoughts, feelings of guilt and stress and its just TOO MUCH.
I hate papers and how teachers think they can dictate how we write them. I went through years of not having to do a rough draft or an outline and now when the teacher announces "Rough drafts are due tomorrow" I automatically shut down into this panic state. I will start my homework at 5 and I will do every assignment except that one so its usually around 9 pm when I get around to it and I just have a break down. Always. I don't even know what to do with myself right now.
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The worst part about writing a rough draft for a paper, is thinking about the actual process of doing it. But when it comes to simply writing it down, its not all that bad. Just sayin. Future self: Don't stress yourself out about something so simple.
I hate papers and how teachers think they can dictate how we write them. I went through years of not having to do a rough draft or an outline and now when the teacher announces "Rough drafts are due tomorrow" I automatically shut down into this panic state. I will start my homework at 5 and I will do every assignment except that one so its usually around 9 pm when I get around to it and I just have a break down. Always. I don't even know what to do with myself right now.
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The worst part about writing a rough draft for a paper, is thinking about the actual process of doing it. But when it comes to simply writing it down, its not all that bad. Just sayin. Future self: Don't stress yourself out about something so simple.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Have you ever heard a song and just wanted to dance to it?
(I do apologize for so many youtube video posts.)
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Hold my hand,
Put your head against mine,
Synchronize our breathing,
And read my mind.
See the things I will not say,
Hear the prayers I will not pray,
Lead me through the darkest nights
And even though the brightest of days.
Guide me through the hurt and the pain,
Through the confusion of what to blame.
I cannot go forward on my own,
so teach me how to be shown.
I know I don't have to be so strong,
thankful, because the walls around me wont last for long.
Put your head against mine,
Synchronize our breathing,
And read my mind.
See the things I will not say,
Hear the prayers I will not pray,
Lead me through the darkest nights
And even though the brightest of days.
Guide me through the hurt and the pain,
Through the confusion of what to blame.
I cannot go forward on my own,
so teach me how to be shown.
I know I don't have to be so strong,
thankful, because the walls around me wont last for long.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
9/11
All throughout the night I have been looking at pictures and reading information about the 9/11 memorial site, learning basically all I can about it. My initial question was, "Are the water falls/ reflection pools where the original buildings were?" And in case you were curious too, the answer I found was: "The pools sit within the footprints where the Twin Towers once stood." - 9/11 Memorial: About the Memorial
Among my research, I found out that they are building new World Trade Centers. This wasn't such a surprise to me. What was a surprise was that 1 WTC is planned to be 104 stories high. I guess it just kind of put a fear in me that something will happen again...but I am strongly hoping for the sake of our nation and the many lives of people, that nothing will occur.
As well as researching the memorial, I've been sitting here trying to bring back any emotion I felt that day. I was only in first grade at the time so I was pretty confused, worried, and a bit afraid. I remember feeling the need to be home with my mom and sisters just so I knew they were alright. My mom was at work still so I sat in our living room watching and re-watching the planes crashing, the buildings burning, and people falling. And now when I look back on that day, I realize I didn't see how serious the situation was. I would see all this and, in terror, I would try to make some kind of reassurance to myself that they were alright or that it really wasn't happening. But no. These people were very real, very much alive, and then all at once...gone. So my general feeling on that day was sadness mixed with apathy. Sadness at the thought of all those people who had died, and how their families would hurt for years to come. Everything put together was just a lot for my 6 or 7 year old brain to handle so I ended up trying to block it out. There was one thing I faintly remember doing...I prayed. I didn't know what was going on or who those people were, but I did know how to pray, and so I prayed that God would protect them all.
But this is just my story. One that doesn't even compare to the horror that so many lived through that day and the years after...I'm not sure how many people will read this, but if you would like to share your remembrance of that day or of people who were effected by it, please feel free to do so in the comments, or leave a link to your blog.
God Bless.
Among my research, I found out that they are building new World Trade Centers. This wasn't such a surprise to me. What was a surprise was that 1 WTC is planned to be 104 stories high. I guess it just kind of put a fear in me that something will happen again...but I am strongly hoping for the sake of our nation and the many lives of people, that nothing will occur.
As well as researching the memorial, I've been sitting here trying to bring back any emotion I felt that day. I was only in first grade at the time so I was pretty confused, worried, and a bit afraid. I remember feeling the need to be home with my mom and sisters just so I knew they were alright. My mom was at work still so I sat in our living room watching and re-watching the planes crashing, the buildings burning, and people falling. And now when I look back on that day, I realize I didn't see how serious the situation was. I would see all this and, in terror, I would try to make some kind of reassurance to myself that they were alright or that it really wasn't happening. But no. These people were very real, very much alive, and then all at once...gone. So my general feeling on that day was sadness mixed with apathy. Sadness at the thought of all those people who had died, and how their families would hurt for years to come. Everything put together was just a lot for my 6 or 7 year old brain to handle so I ended up trying to block it out. There was one thing I faintly remember doing...I prayed. I didn't know what was going on or who those people were, but I did know how to pray, and so I prayed that God would protect them all.
But this is just my story. One that doesn't even compare to the horror that so many lived through that day and the years after...I'm not sure how many people will read this, but if you would like to share your remembrance of that day or of people who were effected by it, please feel free to do so in the comments, or leave a link to your blog.
God Bless.
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